Learning to live life to the fullest and stop the constant “cutting myself short” is becoming more and more apparent as I age. The dreams I had as a child, to have a family, to be successful at what I do and to have a wife have all been accomplished.. thinking to myself “great the race has been won” and sailing off into the future with these achievements couldn’t be farther from the truth.
Now come the REAL challenges! Holding it all together when you feel you have everything you have ever wanted, learning how to interact with a woman you have known most of your life over and over again, guiding your children into their future as they become adults themselves.
I am 33 years old, have been with my wife for 16 years, 2 beautiful girls together 9 and 13 and I have never felt the least bit scared until now. life has a way of sneaking up on you with issues that you never imagined.
I was once told if you keep doing what you’re doing and expect a different results, that’s insanity! Yet I do it on a daily basis, I continue down the same old worn out roads time and time again.
I am putting my faith in God that his word in Jeremiah is true, “I have plans for you, plans not to harm you” (not word for word).
My faith has been tested in the last few years more than ever in my life, how will I show up to that? When life’s storms come, what do you do? Where do you turn? Who do you run to? I am for the first time in my life falling to my knees and saying I cannot do this…
I am not made to hold all the weight of the world on my shoulders! God I am putting my faith in you that you are, and as uncertain as that sounds it’s all I have at this point.
Just Love and when you want to let go, love more. Love has always won in my experiences. Today all I can do is hope that love is enough.