Over the last 4 days I have felt a desire to push through the failures in my life and remove the hold they have on my life. I AM what I think I am, and the journey continues to change what I think of myself. Positive thoughts and quick responses to my weakness with my anger and self destructive actions.
I am a powerful influence to those around me, at work, at home, at the gym, wherever I go I need to hold myself higher and represent the overcoming of my failures as a representation of the change in my life.
2 Corinthians 12:8-9, 11-12 NIV
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. I have made a fool of myself, but you drove me to it. I ought to have been commended by you, for I am not in the least inferior to the “super-apostles,” even though I am nothing. I persevered in demonstrating among you the marks of a true apostle, including signs, wonders and miracles.
I think I pleaded a bit more than 3 times, and continue to plead “please take it away”…
I miss the point, it would be like me going to the gym and asking the guy on the bench next to me to lift for me so I can become stronger. My journey is designed to make or break me and through my ups and downs I learn and am refined into a better me.
I will push, I will climb and I will fight like my life depends on it because in a way it does. My future has many more ups and downs as well as new vices that I haven’t experienced yet.
About a month ago I began a journey to break down my body to rebuild as a much stronger and healthy me by body building. It is only fitting I take the same amount of energy and determination to change who I am on the inside… So as I climb these floors I will seek His face through the word and allow my heart and mind to become healthy.
Fight the good fight, push through what you think “I will never make it through”. There is a prize on the other side..