The Path We Travel


I have seen disappointment, defeat and despair and I have also seen Gods hand in all of. Once I stepped through the doorway of fear and saw from the other side that the worries that flooded my mind were only in my mind, the fear I gave so much power melted away like frost in the morning sun.

“When you find your path, you must not be afraid.
You need to have sufficient courage to make mistakes.
Disappointment, defeat, and despair are
the tools God uses to show us the way”.
– Paulo Coelho

Once I feared the unknown and today I know it is nothing more than events I bring into today from my past. I have learned that what “I know” is nothing more than an illusion to comfort a thought and vision that is not guaranteed, nothing more than an appeasement of my mind.

Where I am today is farther than what I ever could have imagined and the fear I gave so much power to has been shattered, a freedom has developed with confidence that I will be just fine and what “I knew” a year ago would kill me, I’m still here, I’m still smiling and laughing and I can still love.

I’m thankful I didn’t give up and let what I perceived as defeat and despair win and steal my future. Someone once told me “everything you want is on the other side of fear” and that statement has been playing over and over in my head as I began to stand again.

I see a new beginning and I hope that you can see that no matter what you are going through you will get through it and you will be stronger on the other side.

My only advice; do not let the pain of life events and the world we live in harden your heart, love even when everything in you says “ have nothing left to give”, and stand back up after you fall. Life will be beautiful again if you can get back on your feet and continue on. Today I am happy, today I can love, I am breathing, healthy and today I am alive to experience another day.

I am grateful for the past, thankful for today and blessed for every day I get to wake up and experience. One day this will be all over, we will no longer be alive, no longer see all the people that mean so much to us and our legacy will only live on through those we connected with. I want those I connect with to never doubt how much I appreciate their time.


Just Love


The end of 2015 is approaching; I have had quite a wild year, ups and downs, lost and found connections and a chance to finally say I am not afraid of anything anymore. I hope to bring in the new year differently in 2016, not to spend so much time in the future, let go of the past and open my eyes to what I have right here right now. I have another example of how my faith has not failed me…

I am learning to accept that the crazy changes in life are going to happen whether we plan for them or not. People get sick, friends drift apart, loved ones decease and divorce is sometimes a part of life and there’s nothing you can do about any of it. Through my hardships over the last year I see that life is so fragile, precious and can change in the blink of an eye. I am looking forward to new beginnings and to live today as positively and abundantly as I can.

To live is to experience ambivalence to the fullest, good and bad can exist at the same time, not everything is black or white and life can always be rebuilt. A positive outlook will get you farther than good intentions and best of all let the little crap in life go; Life is too short to worry about the little things, love without reluctance and understanding and we all have struggles of our own and are on our own journeys.