Over the last few days waves of emotion have flooded in, most are small manageable waves, however last night was a tsunami.
Learning to not respond the same way I have for most of my life is easier said than done.
Picture this, you drive to work the same way for over 10 years. Every day the same right turn, left turn right turn, the same 1 light that just so happens to be green most of the time..
Now wake up after a long night of not sleeping and walk out to go to work and have to debate which way truly is the fastest way from your new apartment.
Life works the same way, you get into a kind of auto mode. It’s actually called (auto sequencing) and our minds automatically produce what we’re used to seeing. It is efficient way for our minds to work and learn. It can also be a huge strain when interrupted.
Here’s a good example, life in itself is constantly changing, but how we respond and react is pretty much an auto sequence unless interrupted by the desire to change.
Red, yellow, blue, green, Red, yellow, blue, green, Red, yellow, blue, green, Red yellow, green, blue.
It’s a break in the patterns we see.
Now that is a very small scale, how about when you lose someone close to you, a friend abandons you, you experience a divorce or so many other countless events that disrupt our lives.
“Courage is the power to let go of the familiar”. – Raymond Lindquist
Today I am trying something new, I’m driving the long way to my apartment, taking the back roads to get my daughter from school and keeping my expectations for today to a minimum. I’m going to try to simply be in the moment for one entire day. No planning ahead, no worrying about tomorrow and no thinking about last night.
“Today is your day to paint life in bold colors;
set today’s rhythm with your heart-drum;
walk today’s march with courage;
create today as your celebration of life”. – Jonathan Lockwood Huie
Today begins when we stop looking into yesterday and stop planning for tomorrow.
My “today” started at about 7:30am when I decided to let go of last night and stop thinking about tomorrow. I’m here, right now and it feels great to have a new day to create something the way I see fit.