We have all heard the saying “be careful what you wish for, you just might get it” a time or two in our lives I’m sure. The full extent of that has never been so sobering until now.
At the end of 2017 I wrote a blog that to this day I struggle to pinpoint if I’m glad I wrote it or if it was a curse that continues to haunt me into 2018.
For most of my friends and family I’m known as a joker, fun guy and finding humor in almost everything. However, inside I really enjoy alone time, downtime and to just sitting in the dark alone with music and disconnecting from everything. That balance has been a struggle lately and impacting my life more than I would like it to.
That all changed the day after I posted the story of my daughter and her brush with danger. I really don’t like to bring it up anymore, but due to needing context for this post I feel it’s necessary.
I really haven’t felt the desire to write much since the post due to its overwhelmingly high amount of communication that followed the post. I literally cannot tell you how many messages, Facebook pages wanting to share or publish the post, news channels, radio stations, podcast, magazines and phone calls I have received to interviewed us. In fact I have a phone call scheduled with another magazine for tomorrow at noon…
It’s overwhelming, and a small part of me wants it to go away, and if it wasn’t for the feelings of comfort I have for how many homes it may have impacted I would probably start over with my WordPress.
I really hope to feel the passion to write again, so for now maybe a break is needed.
My girlfriend and I have a saying that we use all the time, and it’s always worked out. So I guess I’ll “play it by ear”, and time will tell what direction my writing and Real Life / War on Sugar blog will travel.
Maybe 2018 will be a year of reflection more than pressing forward, and focusing on trying to grow rather than seeking a crowd to walk with.
So this may be my last post for a while. Maybe it’s time I go inside and not try so hard to “express” so much of what I feel.
To my subscriber’s and followers don’t forget to love others on the roads we travel and some changes in life may feel scary at first but may just be the best things for me.
With all this said, I don’t want to leave on a down note. My life has reached new levels of passion in different areas and my relationships with my family have become so much deeper. Jen and I are doing great and everything in my life feels calm and peacful.