There are so many questions that we will never know, so many things we wanted to say and never have the opportunity to say.
When we lose someone unexpectedly it leaves a bunch of empty little holes in our life. Like turning our soul into Swiss Cheese and learning to navigate the rest of life is painful, confusing, at times lonely, and full of ups and downs.
It is compounded when they take their own life.
I still have some holes, some unanswered questions and SO many things I wish I could say.
I took the phone calls and late night texts for granted. I didn’t see the little signs because when he was near he was 100% a ball of fun and energy. Get us together and it was unstoppable laughing and belly aches.
I to this day, never would have though I’d be writing something like this about someone so full of life.
Recently another shocking story was posted to social media that rocked 100s of family’s, mine included.
Another life lost too soon and unexpectedly.
What can we do..?
I’m truly lost when I ask that question to myself. Is there anything we can do?
You never really know who you are in someone’s life.
I do however know what he was in my life, and I now have missed the opportunity to tell him. I have to tell those who mourn him.
He was someone that when I knew we were going to get together, people better be ready for what happens next..
He was a great friend from across the world with an AMAZING accent. I remember talking for hours over some UV Vodka, in fact I attempted to even fit into his Scottish Kilt… somewhat successfully
His lovely wife and family opened their home to my family and I watched his beautiful children grow into little adults.
And now everytime I hear someone took their own life, all the little holes and questions resurface.
Don’t hesitate to tell someone you care, don’t take for granted the words I love you.
Something as simple as a 15 second text can change the course of someone’s day.
Us being us.. I literally have no idea what we were doing, but we had fun no matter what.
God, I miss you Barry.. I know so many of us do, and I wish you were here still.
My heart goes out to anyone that has been impacted by the loss of a loved one that has taken their own life.